This week is Chemo #4, which means I'll be halfway through Chemo! Who hoo! Recently I've thought about how much everything has changed. When I was first diagnosed, there were many cries and it felt like I was walking in the dark. It was the unknown that made me feel so insecure. It was also the fact of moving back in with my parents would be a change. Now its routine and I know what to expect. When I first started chemo, I was prepared for the worst. I thought I would be violently sick and have hair loss immediately. So far, so good! However; since Chemo #3, my hair has been shedding more and more. No one can tell because it still looks very full but when I brush my hair or even just put my hands through my hair, more hair falls out every day, but not in clumps like I thought it would. Because I don't know how long I have until it all comes out, I decided to have some fun. I had my hair dyed blue and purple at the ends. I figured I might as well have fun with it while I still have it. I would never colour my hair on any other occasion so I might as well take this situation and turn it positive. I've been blessed to have my locks so far into the process and in a way I'm looking forward to having no hair. First of all, it's less of a hassle in the morning and I think it will teach me a valuable lesson in that looks aren't everything. I've also heard of people putting henna on their scalp and having a beautiful design on their beautiful bald head, and I can't wait to experience that too.
. When I first told people I had cancer, there were a lot of "I am so sorry" and honestly this doesn't change me at all. Yes, I've done many things that I wouldn't have done otherwise like painting and writing but I think it just brings out talents and characteristics that I've always had but never had a chance to show others and myself that I had them. Now because of this blog, I get a lot of people saying saying they admire my positivity. Well, in my eyes there's no option. It's either pick yourself up and get on with things or don't fight and not fighting is not an option. This coming week a friend was supposed to come visit but due to her own health concerns her trip was pushed back till she's better. At first I was upset just because I was so looking forward to seeing her but I want her to be as healthy as possible so when we are together we can have a great memorable time. Then I thought to myself of course nothing goes as planned because it never does. On the upside she will be coming at some point in the summer and I can't wait to be reunited. As well I found out my old roommate is also coming to Ontario at the end of the month and will be fitting in a visit to see me. I then realized in life there is always give and take and you always have to look at the silver lining in every situation. You can't be a true sailor if it's always smooth sailing!
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Darlene
8/6/2017 04:40:44 pm
You are so loved. And so strong.
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Marina price
8/6/2017 08:25:11 pm
Their is nothing that our God cannot do look to him for your healing
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JEANETTE SIMKINS
8/6/2017 04:54:24 pm
Love you katie!
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